Hope stirring

I joined ‘Thrive’ because I heard Danish’s insight, psychological understanding and passionate drive to make a difference for those who have suffered the impact of narcissistic abuse in all its forms. I have felt hope stirring within me that I can heal eventually and someday feel free from the vice of abusive pressure that still holds me. I have managed to survive just over a year of living in the same house but separately from my abusive husband but I have to continue to survive in this way until the divorce is settled and the house is sold in order to regain my financial independence to start again . The gaslighting and DARVO continues in the background with the lies and rewriting the history of the 13 year relationship and total deconstruction of my personality . He is denying and lying to everyone including lawyers, police,, doctors, counsellors in order to become a ‘victim’ and has submitted counter allegations of control and coercion to the police about me.

His abuse has included systematic sexual coercion,, control, objectification and violence. His denials, lies and continued gaslighting feel stifling and I can barely see any path forward but I just keep going. I see from the ‘Trauma Processing’ materials available to me in ‘Thrive’ that I can begin to hope that with the help of the professional tools and the presence of Danish ,his team and the community , I will find my path to healing . I have come this far and brought myself from the brink of despair , suicidal ideation, and planning, and hopelessness many times and survived this far. Now I no longer feel so alone on this path of recovery .

Thank you .